Poetry
The Blackness That Lives Inside My Chest
Free verse
↑ this one took me a long time to write.
Reelshy boy from SzczecinStaś
a portrait of,
Stanisław
"Staś" Dovganyuk
Born without vocal folds. I have never made a sound. I write poems, draw, and stand in front of cameras instead of speaking, this is where the work lives.
Poet✦Aphonic since birth✦Artist✦Editorial model✦Autistic✦Szczecin · PL✦Mute Doodle Den✦Age 13✦He / Him✦EU · UK · AU · CA via management✦JP · KR via local reps✦With a guardian, always✦Poet✦Aphonic since birth✦Artist✦Editorial model✦Autistic✦Szczecin · PL✦Mute Doodle Den✦Age 13✦He / Him✦EU · UK · AU · CA via management✦JP · KR via local reps✦With a guardian, always✦
Selected · 01
The work, first.
a few of my favourites →
Editorial
Studio portrait
Editorial
On the street
Walking home
Outtake
in the studio.
About · 02
Born mute.
Not silent.
I'm thirteen. I'm autistic. I have never made a sound, no voice, no whisper, no scream. I think a lot, watch a lot, and write the rest down.
I use a typing app, sign language, expressions and notebooks. Most of what I want to say arrives in poems, drawings, or the way I stand in front of a camera.
Writing · 03
From the notebook.
Free-verse poems and short essays about being mute, autistic, and thirteen. I don't pretty them up.
All writing →a few of the ones people read most ↓
- The Blackness That Lives Inside My ChestDepression as a heavy thing that won't leave
- When Everything Gets Too LoudPanic attacks and being overwhelmed
- Digital ChainsPhones, screens, and stolen hours
- There Is No TomorrowA political poem about wars and big messes
- Seven Shadows in My HeadThe seven sins, written small
All of these live on Mute Doodle Den. The Writing page is just the index.
Sketchbook · interlude
A page from the desk.
not for anyone really. just for me.
tuesday.
a moth came in.
rain day.
this was a fun day.
Modeling · 04
It started with one photographer asking.
A friend with a camera asked if I'd stand for a portrait. I nodded. That turned into a series, and the series turned into more shoots, all with my guardians and management in the room.
Silent acting suits me. I don't have a voice for a director to chase, so I give them a face that means it.
Modeling profile →Voice · 05
How I work.
four small rules.
- 01
I notice things first.
Most of my work begins as something I watched for too long, a stranger's hands, a sound I can't hear but can see in someone's face.
- 02
I write before I draw.
A line of writing usually arrives first. The drawing is what keeps the line from leaving.
- 03
I leave the rough edges.
I don't tidy a poem until it sounds like an adult wrote it. That's not the point.
- 04
Quiet sets are best.
I can work all day if a room is calm. Loud studios cost me hours of energy I don't have.
Contact · 06
Have a project that needs a quiet face?
↓ my team reads everything.
All work goes through my management and guardians. Email is the cleanest way in.